Thursday, September 30, 2010

1000 Graces from God - No.1

A fellow blogger who always inspires me to love God more decided to stop, look and see the various graces poured over her head instead of feeling negative over the things that at times overwhelm us.  I decided to tag along with this and will start by finding my own 1000 graces from God as from today.

In fact my first grace from God is to have a happy, undemanding child.

There are moments in my life where I still find caring for Gregory a hassle and wish my days free to do as I please.  However, today I remembered how precious a gift he is.  How undemanding and always smiling.  How he joys over little things like seeing a snail or having us doing funny faces to him or simply reading the titles of recipes in a funny voice.  What a joy this is considering how many people wish to have a child whether he is tiresome or not and can't.

Thank you God for the gift and grace given to me and which you reminded me of on this particular day!

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

today

Today I reached a corner stone in life.  Because today was my last day volunteering at the Island Sanctuary.  I thought of work and volunteering and what I learnt.

Before Gregory was born I worked for 10 years at the same tourism company.  I liked the boss I had and the pay was good besides work was what I had studied for.  By the time Gregory was born, I had been thinking of quitting for a while- I had reached my limits for tourism, work had started to go somewhat downhill and now I know that deep down I wished some better relationships at work!

The people who worked with me taught me all the things I used to abore and that undermined my resolution, determination, commitment, love & confidence.  They liked to gossip on people and I found myself joining in- I admit I am very happy to have got rid of that excess baggage!  They lived for what people thought, appearances, social status and made me hunger for things I never wanted, which left me depleted, out of synch and now I know that deep down I fought myself about it.  I am not completely cleansed of this but I see a complete different me, the me I used to know and I am much more happier this way.  I see how these 10 years have effected me and how in just one year I managed to get nearly in control of the real me once again.

At the volunteering on the other hand, I met a lot of dedicated people full of love and compassion.  Who didn't ask about your background and only expected you to work as hard as they did for the good of the dogs there.  It helped me a lot to let go of all the superficial stuff I wanted.  I loved volunteering and admittedly it took a lot of commitment and love to go there week after week.  Because lets face it sometimes you just wish to stay home and do nothing or are having a bad day but whatever the reason, I would think of those people who not only go once weekly but everyday and do their best to keep the strays happy and eventually find them a loving home.

I look at both those worlds.  I think of both those worlds.

I do not regret my decisions.  I realise that to find myself I had to go through this period of life.  Now I've reached a corner stone.  A chapter I can close for good and another I will close for the time being.  In the meantime, I will teach my growing son about the good and bad and in betweens of life.  Life is not black or white it is full of colours and shades and only our perceptions decide how we look at them.

Friday, September 24, 2010

The gift within me

See this has been a different pregnancy is many ways.  Not only the physical changes occurred much quicker than before and not only I feel much more tired than before or feel this baby kick a lot more than Gregory ever did.

This baby has given me a gift.  I have realised how blessed I am with falling pregnant so easily.  I have seen more beauty in my emerging growing son than I might have seen had I not been pregnant.  I am much more excited about seeing this baby and can't wait to have it in my arms.  I wonder if they got the sex right and that has now increased my impatience to view my baby.

Sorting through the newborn clothes recently and making wardrobe space for them got me whimsical and at the same time terrified-look at Gregory sleeping sweetly, being able to give him all my attention.....I know my next child will be loved as much as Greg but I can't fathom how I will divide myself to them yet.  Although I plan and think, I won't really know what will happen and how this will effect us all before baby is born.

The last gift I feel this baby has given me is more patience- I wonder at myself when I see myself hold back from scolding, smacking or shouting at Gregory.  I find my patience has been growing and that is probably one of the biggest gifts of all for me!

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Welcome to Living Simply

I hope you like the new name!  I chose it for a variety of reasons...

  • Since the birth of our son we have been living more simply then before and haven't found to miss the old days really
  • Although most days can be said to be routine, both myself and my son seem to thrive on knowing what is going to happen next and so nowadays I rejoice in our routines and find more tiresome the days where we lack a routine
  • Because of the above plus a handful of reading I did, living the simplest possible way is my goal as it seems that this has more pros than cons in our lives.  Everyday I try to think of ways to make things easier to enjoy my son and love my husband and although not always successful, life is much happier this way.
Besides Living Simply should be our aim- to live every day as our only day in our lives, loving well and laughing a lot!  The name also inspires me to write more on our daily lives and our happening as we go from transition to another.  This is especially true at the moment with the waiting of our second child but that is a whole new post I will write soon!

Blessings and joyful moments!

Monday, September 20, 2010

Leading the way to two

Ain't my man looking super sweet here pretending to talk on the phone? 

This Summer as I have said probably ad nauseum, we saw lots of sudden progress in Gregory.  Maybe the most prominent change these past few days or so has been the sudden outbursts of frustration (also known as tantrums?).  Although they happen any time of the day, we had a few nighttime problems as well and whenever this happens it actually humbles me.

Here he is understanding practically anything I tell him and with an increasing vocabulary on a weekly basis but he still hasn't got enough to tell me what are his needs at any given time.  Especially at night time when he is full of sleep he seems too confused to even tell me a basic need as drink and the ensuing crying and kicking and flailing of arms is quite an incredible experience. 

I always feel helpless in trying to understand and calm him and its an uphill battle with myself in wondering if I am doing it right or wrong the handling of each situation.  So in trying to be consistent, while being understanding, I am trying to let my instinct take over more everyday to deal compassionately with these situations.

How do/did you distinguish between a need and a want?

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Blog name

Been thinking of changing my blog name- see when I started I had in mind to include mainly stuff on yoga and the environment.  However I have taken it over as a daily life/parenting blog and so believe that the name needs to be changed.

What do you think? any suggestions?

Monday, September 13, 2010

It's a.......

.......dang I ain't gonna tell you !  See although the ultrasound technician assured me that it's defenitely a........ and deep within me I also felt the same, I have this phobia of things done prematurely and gone wrong.  So unfortunately I will keep you all in suspense for another 3 months.  I will also not dwell about it and make believe that I do not know as if there was a mistaken identity I know I will take it super badly!

Do not despair however, things are going fine I was told.  I do feel it kicking, summersaulting, backflipping and God knows what else.  I also am growing steadily and here is a pic of me at 22 weeks - though frankly I think in the pic I came looking smaller than I actually am and maybe I should take a pic of my bare tummy LOL.

My complaint of the month (or rather the whole of Summer)- tiredness!  I assure you I never felt so much tired in my whole life....granted I have a toddler to keep up with but really even if he plays alone and I am sitting nearby just watching I eventually get very tired and by 8pm I am normally asleep.  Today is a good day as you can see since I am still chatting along!!  My PSD has had a couple of days of utter discomfort but I am hoping that will be back to normal by the coming weekend.  Nothing much else to report on my pregnancy really so here is a pic of the whole family instead :

Monday, September 6, 2010

Touching my days

I realise that my last posts have all been related to Gregory.  Yet you have to concede that there are times in our lives where some things grip our attention more firmly than usual and this is one of them!

His recent developments really put me in awe and being pregnant seems to enhance my view of my first born.  I am there seeing him everyday- blessed to be able and do so- and everything strikes me in a way it hasn't before.

Sometimes, I wonder how everything will change with the new arrival and how Gregory will take to it.  Most of the time I let the worrying out of the window, because what is the point in doing so if I have really no idea!  I can read till my eyes squint about the subject but truly every child responds differently and every parents' approach is different as well and so I decided that now I have done my homework, to let instinct do the rest :)

And now that the temp. has gone slightly down and I can breathe again, I will simply enjoy my last few months with him alone.  It's a bittersweet moment knowing that soon he will not be the centre of my universe any more.  However, life is a celebration of inconsistencies and as such I will let it into my door and breathe in the new era. I will stumble and fall but will finally find my footing and some balance will return and that is what we are always looking for !

I hope you all have a good week.  Love and Peace to you all!

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Children Art

My boy loves graffiti as you can see!  This trolley is meant to have blocks in but.....
His blocks are full of graffiti art as well!



Gregory's passion with colours started quite recently, at first he wouldn't glance much at them and suddenly he became totally engrossed.  He can spend the WHOLE day drawing away!  We have finally managed to convince him that drawing should be done on his colouring book (he started his 3rd one already!) although I have to remind him every now and then that blocks, other books & furnture are NOT for drawing!!  He has also progressed from doing random lines to do whole blocks of colour at a go and he holds his crayons with either hands so really he will probably learn to write with both hands.  I enjoy his love for art and can't wait to reintroduce him to poster colour (that should be another post but the couple of times I let him have a free hand with those...well everything got painted on from his body, to curtains, floors etc ).
Here he is totally engrossed drawing his butterflies.

Thursday, September 30, 2010

1000 Graces from God - No.1

A fellow blogger who always inspires me to love God more decided to stop, look and see the various graces poured over her head instead of feeling negative over the things that at times overwhelm us.  I decided to tag along with this and will start by finding my own 1000 graces from God as from today.

In fact my first grace from God is to have a happy, undemanding child.

There are moments in my life where I still find caring for Gregory a hassle and wish my days free to do as I please.  However, today I remembered how precious a gift he is.  How undemanding and always smiling.  How he joys over little things like seeing a snail or having us doing funny faces to him or simply reading the titles of recipes in a funny voice.  What a joy this is considering how many people wish to have a child whether he is tiresome or not and can't.

Thank you God for the gift and grace given to me and which you reminded me of on this particular day!

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

today

Today I reached a corner stone in life.  Because today was my last day volunteering at the Island Sanctuary.  I thought of work and volunteering and what I learnt.

Before Gregory was born I worked for 10 years at the same tourism company.  I liked the boss I had and the pay was good besides work was what I had studied for.  By the time Gregory was born, I had been thinking of quitting for a while- I had reached my limits for tourism, work had started to go somewhat downhill and now I know that deep down I wished some better relationships at work!

The people who worked with me taught me all the things I used to abore and that undermined my resolution, determination, commitment, love & confidence.  They liked to gossip on people and I found myself joining in- I admit I am very happy to have got rid of that excess baggage!  They lived for what people thought, appearances, social status and made me hunger for things I never wanted, which left me depleted, out of synch and now I know that deep down I fought myself about it.  I am not completely cleansed of this but I see a complete different me, the me I used to know and I am much more happier this way.  I see how these 10 years have effected me and how in just one year I managed to get nearly in control of the real me once again.

At the volunteering on the other hand, I met a lot of dedicated people full of love and compassion.  Who didn't ask about your background and only expected you to work as hard as they did for the good of the dogs there.  It helped me a lot to let go of all the superficial stuff I wanted.  I loved volunteering and admittedly it took a lot of commitment and love to go there week after week.  Because lets face it sometimes you just wish to stay home and do nothing or are having a bad day but whatever the reason, I would think of those people who not only go once weekly but everyday and do their best to keep the strays happy and eventually find them a loving home.

I look at both those worlds.  I think of both those worlds.

I do not regret my decisions.  I realise that to find myself I had to go through this period of life.  Now I've reached a corner stone.  A chapter I can close for good and another I will close for the time being.  In the meantime, I will teach my growing son about the good and bad and in betweens of life.  Life is not black or white it is full of colours and shades and only our perceptions decide how we look at them.

Friday, September 24, 2010

The gift within me

See this has been a different pregnancy is many ways.  Not only the physical changes occurred much quicker than before and not only I feel much more tired than before or feel this baby kick a lot more than Gregory ever did.

This baby has given me a gift.  I have realised how blessed I am with falling pregnant so easily.  I have seen more beauty in my emerging growing son than I might have seen had I not been pregnant.  I am much more excited about seeing this baby and can't wait to have it in my arms.  I wonder if they got the sex right and that has now increased my impatience to view my baby.

Sorting through the newborn clothes recently and making wardrobe space for them got me whimsical and at the same time terrified-look at Gregory sleeping sweetly, being able to give him all my attention.....I know my next child will be loved as much as Greg but I can't fathom how I will divide myself to them yet.  Although I plan and think, I won't really know what will happen and how this will effect us all before baby is born.

The last gift I feel this baby has given me is more patience- I wonder at myself when I see myself hold back from scolding, smacking or shouting at Gregory.  I find my patience has been growing and that is probably one of the biggest gifts of all for me!

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Welcome to Living Simply

I hope you like the new name!  I chose it for a variety of reasons...

  • Since the birth of our son we have been living more simply then before and haven't found to miss the old days really
  • Although most days can be said to be routine, both myself and my son seem to thrive on knowing what is going to happen next and so nowadays I rejoice in our routines and find more tiresome the days where we lack a routine
  • Because of the above plus a handful of reading I did, living the simplest possible way is my goal as it seems that this has more pros than cons in our lives.  Everyday I try to think of ways to make things easier to enjoy my son and love my husband and although not always successful, life is much happier this way.
Besides Living Simply should be our aim- to live every day as our only day in our lives, loving well and laughing a lot!  The name also inspires me to write more on our daily lives and our happening as we go from transition to another.  This is especially true at the moment with the waiting of our second child but that is a whole new post I will write soon!

Blessings and joyful moments!

Monday, September 20, 2010

Leading the way to two

Ain't my man looking super sweet here pretending to talk on the phone? 

This Summer as I have said probably ad nauseum, we saw lots of sudden progress in Gregory.  Maybe the most prominent change these past few days or so has been the sudden outbursts of frustration (also known as tantrums?).  Although they happen any time of the day, we had a few nighttime problems as well and whenever this happens it actually humbles me.

Here he is understanding practically anything I tell him and with an increasing vocabulary on a weekly basis but he still hasn't got enough to tell me what are his needs at any given time.  Especially at night time when he is full of sleep he seems too confused to even tell me a basic need as drink and the ensuing crying and kicking and flailing of arms is quite an incredible experience. 

I always feel helpless in trying to understand and calm him and its an uphill battle with myself in wondering if I am doing it right or wrong the handling of each situation.  So in trying to be consistent, while being understanding, I am trying to let my instinct take over more everyday to deal compassionately with these situations.

How do/did you distinguish between a need and a want?

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Blog name

Been thinking of changing my blog name- see when I started I had in mind to include mainly stuff on yoga and the environment.  However I have taken it over as a daily life/parenting blog and so believe that the name needs to be changed.

What do you think? any suggestions?

Monday, September 13, 2010

It's a.......

.......dang I ain't gonna tell you !  See although the ultrasound technician assured me that it's defenitely a........ and deep within me I also felt the same, I have this phobia of things done prematurely and gone wrong.  So unfortunately I will keep you all in suspense for another 3 months.  I will also not dwell about it and make believe that I do not know as if there was a mistaken identity I know I will take it super badly!

Do not despair however, things are going fine I was told.  I do feel it kicking, summersaulting, backflipping and God knows what else.  I also am growing steadily and here is a pic of me at 22 weeks - though frankly I think in the pic I came looking smaller than I actually am and maybe I should take a pic of my bare tummy LOL.

My complaint of the month (or rather the whole of Summer)- tiredness!  I assure you I never felt so much tired in my whole life....granted I have a toddler to keep up with but really even if he plays alone and I am sitting nearby just watching I eventually get very tired and by 8pm I am normally asleep.  Today is a good day as you can see since I am still chatting along!!  My PSD has had a couple of days of utter discomfort but I am hoping that will be back to normal by the coming weekend.  Nothing much else to report on my pregnancy really so here is a pic of the whole family instead :

Monday, September 6, 2010

Touching my days

I realise that my last posts have all been related to Gregory.  Yet you have to concede that there are times in our lives where some things grip our attention more firmly than usual and this is one of them!

His recent developments really put me in awe and being pregnant seems to enhance my view of my first born.  I am there seeing him everyday- blessed to be able and do so- and everything strikes me in a way it hasn't before.

Sometimes, I wonder how everything will change with the new arrival and how Gregory will take to it.  Most of the time I let the worrying out of the window, because what is the point in doing so if I have really no idea!  I can read till my eyes squint about the subject but truly every child responds differently and every parents' approach is different as well and so I decided that now I have done my homework, to let instinct do the rest :)

And now that the temp. has gone slightly down and I can breathe again, I will simply enjoy my last few months with him alone.  It's a bittersweet moment knowing that soon he will not be the centre of my universe any more.  However, life is a celebration of inconsistencies and as such I will let it into my door and breathe in the new era. I will stumble and fall but will finally find my footing and some balance will return and that is what we are always looking for !

I hope you all have a good week.  Love and Peace to you all!

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Children Art

My boy loves graffiti as you can see!  This trolley is meant to have blocks in but.....
His blocks are full of graffiti art as well!



Gregory's passion with colours started quite recently, at first he wouldn't glance much at them and suddenly he became totally engrossed.  He can spend the WHOLE day drawing away!  We have finally managed to convince him that drawing should be done on his colouring book (he started his 3rd one already!) although I have to remind him every now and then that blocks, other books & furnture are NOT for drawing!!  He has also progressed from doing random lines to do whole blocks of colour at a go and he holds his crayons with either hands so really he will probably learn to write with both hands.  I enjoy his love for art and can't wait to reintroduce him to poster colour (that should be another post but the couple of times I let him have a free hand with those...well everything got painted on from his body, to curtains, floors etc ).
Here he is totally engrossed drawing his butterflies.