Thursday, October 18, 2012

Slowly

It's been a very long while since I posted.

Autumn started, than it reverted back to Summer and now, well now Autumn seems to be starting up slowly again.

Slowly.
Slow down.

These words have been haunting me for 2 weeks now.  Things happened and whenever something happened, these words reeled in my head.  I came to realise that my enthusiasm for helping in school, working with breastfeeding mothers and so on had taken over my life.  To the point were while I thought I was giving myself to caring for my daughter at home, my mind was on something else.

It's been a hard 2 weeks to bear.  Because I need to keep reminding myself to slow down.  To go back to my original path and slowly, slowly build up from there.  But minds are fickle and mine keeps wandering the path forbidden.

And because I am moving again on my path, I came to see how my ideas and thoughts of 6 months ago are making a full circle and coming back at seemingly the right moment.  How, what's been hibernating in the depths of my heart is coming back to life and yes slowly, slowly I am seeing the light.

So I plod. I remind myself. Sometimes I scream and give myself a headache. Stop, slow down and think.

It is all clicking now!

Thursday, October 18, 2012

Slowly

It's been a very long while since I posted.

Autumn started, than it reverted back to Summer and now, well now Autumn seems to be starting up slowly again.

Slowly.
Slow down.

These words have been haunting me for 2 weeks now.  Things happened and whenever something happened, these words reeled in my head.  I came to realise that my enthusiasm for helping in school, working with breastfeeding mothers and so on had taken over my life.  To the point were while I thought I was giving myself to caring for my daughter at home, my mind was on something else.

It's been a hard 2 weeks to bear.  Because I need to keep reminding myself to slow down.  To go back to my original path and slowly, slowly build up from there.  But minds are fickle and mine keeps wandering the path forbidden.

And because I am moving again on my path, I came to see how my ideas and thoughts of 6 months ago are making a full circle and coming back at seemingly the right moment.  How, what's been hibernating in the depths of my heart is coming back to life and yes slowly, slowly I am seeing the light.

So I plod. I remind myself. Sometimes I scream and give myself a headache. Stop, slow down and think.

It is all clicking now!