Sunday, November 25, 2012

The emerging woman

When Gregory was born and 2 years later Maya, I was so happy to stay home.  To be for that point in time just a mother and wife.  I was blessed to have been given such a privilege.

Four years down the line, I am ready to go back into the world.  To mingle with people.  To do stuff.  I am increasingly aware of my struggle to keep it simple.  It is why I now know I have been feeling the need to slow down.  Because my capricious mind had been hopping with ideas and I have been accepting more 'work' than I can possibly handle with still a toddler at home.  I was forgetting that my little girl is still very little and needs me. I was forgetting that while my little man started Kindergarten, he is still very young and needs me as well.

The woman in me is screaming to come forth.  Show the world the transformations that happened to me in these four years.  I sometimes get impatient waiting, biding my time, keeping the family as the top priority.  I sometimes want roles I am holding outside the home to be more recognised and than I humbly thank God for reminding me that my principal role is still to be at home with the kids.

It's a struggle at best and the need to slow down still comes plenty to my mind.  To find calm in the chaos of my mind.  To be still.

However, the waiting is also exciting.  It gives new meaning to life.  Because I know when my opportunity to fully emerge will come it will be a blowing experience.

And so I wait.
I struggle.
Slow down.
Take too many things out.
Slow down again.

I let the ups and downs to guide me. The tides to flow. I listen and sigh and wish and know that soon my time will come......


Saturday, November 10, 2012

Our Amazing life

A beautiful 7 spotted ladybird 
Kiddos & hubs on one of our hikes 
Great White Butterfly

having a snack

feeling and learning on bugs

Was amazed at the beauty and thankful this little creature let me capture him on camera

playing in the luggage

showing off his culinary skills

doing a puzzle with my help

enjoying nature

my sweet girl

Friday, November 2, 2012

November


Autumn has been an uneven season so far.

Too many things are happening and as I said before, I constantly feel the need to slow down but somehow ain't managing.

In view of this, I decided to build a weekly calendar of activities and other things that need be doing.  A schedule to help balance the need of everyone.  The only unforeseeable is my clients as a Breastfeeding Counselor - as they come in fits and can take a lot of hours and days out of my week.  It is good that I am having clients but I am  still first and foremost the mother of 2 very young children and so I need to give them their routine and schedule.  Heck I need it myself!

Towards living the season: pumpkin carving, All Soul's Day cookies, St Martin's feast and of course Advent will soon start.

Towards nurturing the bodies: more time outside, warming healthy foods to keep the sickness at bay and warm clothing - even though our weather doesn't seem much cold right now.

Towards tending the home: another Spring cleaning session is soon due....its mainly just me holding back in view of waiting for new tiles to come and be laid.

Towards nurturing the spirit: learning Religion through activities, stories and trying to be of the best example possible.  I have to say that for the past month I have been very pleased with my own results on temper holding and discipline giving.  I am so thankful for all the guides I have been having to help me along the way.

Towards giving grace:

211. hearing I love you many times
212. lots of hugs and kisses to his younger sister
213. progress at our house
214. clients for me
215. being sick - a reminder to slow down
216. lots of fun things to look forward to
217. lots of help
218. time alone with hubs
219. cosy duvets
220. bargaining while playing



Sunday, November 25, 2012

The emerging woman

When Gregory was born and 2 years later Maya, I was so happy to stay home.  To be for that point in time just a mother and wife.  I was blessed to have been given such a privilege.

Four years down the line, I am ready to go back into the world.  To mingle with people.  To do stuff.  I am increasingly aware of my struggle to keep it simple.  It is why I now know I have been feeling the need to slow down.  Because my capricious mind had been hopping with ideas and I have been accepting more 'work' than I can possibly handle with still a toddler at home.  I was forgetting that my little girl is still very little and needs me. I was forgetting that while my little man started Kindergarten, he is still very young and needs me as well.

The woman in me is screaming to come forth.  Show the world the transformations that happened to me in these four years.  I sometimes get impatient waiting, biding my time, keeping the family as the top priority.  I sometimes want roles I am holding outside the home to be more recognised and than I humbly thank God for reminding me that my principal role is still to be at home with the kids.

It's a struggle at best and the need to slow down still comes plenty to my mind.  To find calm in the chaos of my mind.  To be still.

However, the waiting is also exciting.  It gives new meaning to life.  Because I know when my opportunity to fully emerge will come it will be a blowing experience.

And so I wait.
I struggle.
Slow down.
Take too many things out.
Slow down again.

I let the ups and downs to guide me. The tides to flow. I listen and sigh and wish and know that soon my time will come......


Saturday, November 10, 2012

Our Amazing life

A beautiful 7 spotted ladybird 
Kiddos & hubs on one of our hikes 
Great White Butterfly

having a snack

feeling and learning on bugs

Was amazed at the beauty and thankful this little creature let me capture him on camera

playing in the luggage

showing off his culinary skills

doing a puzzle with my help

enjoying nature

my sweet girl

Friday, November 2, 2012

November


Autumn has been an uneven season so far.

Too many things are happening and as I said before, I constantly feel the need to slow down but somehow ain't managing.

In view of this, I decided to build a weekly calendar of activities and other things that need be doing.  A schedule to help balance the need of everyone.  The only unforeseeable is my clients as a Breastfeeding Counselor - as they come in fits and can take a lot of hours and days out of my week.  It is good that I am having clients but I am  still first and foremost the mother of 2 very young children and so I need to give them their routine and schedule.  Heck I need it myself!

Towards living the season: pumpkin carving, All Soul's Day cookies, St Martin's feast and of course Advent will soon start.

Towards nurturing the bodies: more time outside, warming healthy foods to keep the sickness at bay and warm clothing - even though our weather doesn't seem much cold right now.

Towards tending the home: another Spring cleaning session is soon due....its mainly just me holding back in view of waiting for new tiles to come and be laid.

Towards nurturing the spirit: learning Religion through activities, stories and trying to be of the best example possible.  I have to say that for the past month I have been very pleased with my own results on temper holding and discipline giving.  I am so thankful for all the guides I have been having to help me along the way.

Towards giving grace:

211. hearing I love you many times
212. lots of hugs and kisses to his younger sister
213. progress at our house
214. clients for me
215. being sick - a reminder to slow down
216. lots of fun things to look forward to
217. lots of help
218. time alone with hubs
219. cosy duvets
220. bargaining while playing