Friday, February 25, 2011

It's a good day to be tired

Yes, it's a good day to be tired today.

Because I was granted another day with my family.  A family that needs me constantly and leaves me drained and sometimes bereft of feelings.  A family that rewards me with smiles from the baby, hugs from the toddler and kisses from my husband.  A family that snuggles all in one bed at night and is happy to do so in this cold weather.

A family....

Yes, it's the perfect day to be tired!

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

cooling the flames

I realise no week updates had been forthcoming on my anger management challenge but you have to excuse me- readjusting to a new baby and all that!

Anyhow, here is what's been happening..... I read a book by mistake called Anger- cooling the flames which I found very interesting and helpful.  I also found out my normal anger triggers are tiredness and loss of control and therefore no wonder I had such a big issue while pregnant as it was both combined.  Since Maya's birth, I have found a lot of my inner equilibrium once more and with some meditation and yoga and trying on being minful a lot, I am defenitely cooling the flames slowly.

I am quite pleased that if anything I am being more normal and also on the progress of recognising my anger and trying to calm it.  Now for March I am challenging myself on not loosing my cool for more than 10 times all month.  Let's see how it goes!

wish you all a great calmng week.

homeschooling & more graces

Yesterday, I decided to finally start the homeschooling for real. - i.e. a more structured homeschooling since what we were doing was random things that teach and nothing much.  However, I am finding Greg getting bored quite quickly with everything and since Maya's conception, this is were I feel well enough and energetic enough to get into a good rythm again. 

I think he might be ready to learn the alphabet and so we will do a letter every week starting with the letters that make up his name.  Everyday we will read a book that is also connected to the letter, find the letter among many others and learn which words begin with said letter.  Plus once weekly we do a craft e.g. build a car when its the letter C.

Apart for that keeping up a better schedule (that is still dictated according to Greg's wish) for circle time where we sing with movement (e.g. if you're happy and you know it..), story time one with books and the other with puppets, time outside rain or shine and drawing on our drawing book and of course free play.  Today, I tried it unintentionally and it worked perfectly.  Greg was more happy and relaxed and so was I as had time for both my kids.  So this is grace no. 75!

and here is a continued updated of God's graces to us:

73. little helping hands
74. warm clothes on cold windy days
75. ideas that help all the family grow
76. being more aware of my emotions and controlling them better
77. playschool
78. extra helpful family members
79. understanding where I am and where I'd like to go
80. Maya's first smiles
81. bottles and breast pumps
82. a husband that finds you sexy when you dont feel it yourself

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Spring on its way

Last Sunday it was Spring.... we had a weekful of Spring and now the bad weather is coming again..... however, this is how we spent that wonderful day.






Thursday, February 10, 2011

One Month

This little missy is somehow already a month old!



After that interminable pregnancy, I wonder how the time flew with her in my arms.  Maya is so completely different from Greg that I stopped comparing within a week.  She sleeps a lot and drinks at leisure, with pauses and stops which drive me crazy.  She's growing oh so quickly that the newborn stuff will be packed away within a week.  She doesn't like feeling dirty and cries like a maniac till she is clean.  So much so that where as Greg used to have a weekly bath and sponging everyday, Maya takes a bath every 3 days.

When awake she wants to be on someone and participate in this new world of hers.  Enjoys being weared around and sleeps heavenly like that.  And frankly, I still got no idea how to fit her in and give her the attention she deserves  and that I am missing right now.  However on the bright side of things, its all getting easier to deal with and so believe the solution is very soon coming.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

1000 graces from God 61 - 72

61. sunny days to dry our clothes
62. the smell of baked pies
63. muddied clothes & rosy cheeks
64. the invading smell of breast milk all over me & Maya
65. the ability to clean my own house once more
66. lovely gifts from family & friends
67. restful sleep
68. crying for mummy coz it shows how much my little people love me and need me
69. cozy & squashed in bed
70. rainy days because we need it desperately
71. seeing the problem even if no solution seems forthcoming
72. the scars of motherhood on my body

Thank you Lord for all these graces, looking at the mundane is now brighter than the extraordinary.

Friday, February 25, 2011

It's a good day to be tired

Yes, it's a good day to be tired today.

Because I was granted another day with my family.  A family that needs me constantly and leaves me drained and sometimes bereft of feelings.  A family that rewards me with smiles from the baby, hugs from the toddler and kisses from my husband.  A family that snuggles all in one bed at night and is happy to do so in this cold weather.

A family....

Yes, it's the perfect day to be tired!

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

cooling the flames

I realise no week updates had been forthcoming on my anger management challenge but you have to excuse me- readjusting to a new baby and all that!

Anyhow, here is what's been happening..... I read a book by mistake called Anger- cooling the flames which I found very interesting and helpful.  I also found out my normal anger triggers are tiredness and loss of control and therefore no wonder I had such a big issue while pregnant as it was both combined.  Since Maya's birth, I have found a lot of my inner equilibrium once more and with some meditation and yoga and trying on being minful a lot, I am defenitely cooling the flames slowly.

I am quite pleased that if anything I am being more normal and also on the progress of recognising my anger and trying to calm it.  Now for March I am challenging myself on not loosing my cool for more than 10 times all month.  Let's see how it goes!

wish you all a great calmng week.

homeschooling & more graces

Yesterday, I decided to finally start the homeschooling for real. - i.e. a more structured homeschooling since what we were doing was random things that teach and nothing much.  However, I am finding Greg getting bored quite quickly with everything and since Maya's conception, this is were I feel well enough and energetic enough to get into a good rythm again. 

I think he might be ready to learn the alphabet and so we will do a letter every week starting with the letters that make up his name.  Everyday we will read a book that is also connected to the letter, find the letter among many others and learn which words begin with said letter.  Plus once weekly we do a craft e.g. build a car when its the letter C.

Apart for that keeping up a better schedule (that is still dictated according to Greg's wish) for circle time where we sing with movement (e.g. if you're happy and you know it..), story time one with books and the other with puppets, time outside rain or shine and drawing on our drawing book and of course free play.  Today, I tried it unintentionally and it worked perfectly.  Greg was more happy and relaxed and so was I as had time for both my kids.  So this is grace no. 75!

and here is a continued updated of God's graces to us:

73. little helping hands
74. warm clothes on cold windy days
75. ideas that help all the family grow
76. being more aware of my emotions and controlling them better
77. playschool
78. extra helpful family members
79. understanding where I am and where I'd like to go
80. Maya's first smiles
81. bottles and breast pumps
82. a husband that finds you sexy when you dont feel it yourself

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Spring on its way

Last Sunday it was Spring.... we had a weekful of Spring and now the bad weather is coming again..... however, this is how we spent that wonderful day.






Thursday, February 10, 2011

One Month

This little missy is somehow already a month old!



After that interminable pregnancy, I wonder how the time flew with her in my arms.  Maya is so completely different from Greg that I stopped comparing within a week.  She sleeps a lot and drinks at leisure, with pauses and stops which drive me crazy.  She's growing oh so quickly that the newborn stuff will be packed away within a week.  She doesn't like feeling dirty and cries like a maniac till she is clean.  So much so that where as Greg used to have a weekly bath and sponging everyday, Maya takes a bath every 3 days.

When awake she wants to be on someone and participate in this new world of hers.  Enjoys being weared around and sleeps heavenly like that.  And frankly, I still got no idea how to fit her in and give her the attention she deserves  and that I am missing right now.  However on the bright side of things, its all getting easier to deal with and so believe the solution is very soon coming.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

1000 graces from God 61 - 72

61. sunny days to dry our clothes
62. the smell of baked pies
63. muddied clothes & rosy cheeks
64. the invading smell of breast milk all over me & Maya
65. the ability to clean my own house once more
66. lovely gifts from family & friends
67. restful sleep
68. crying for mummy coz it shows how much my little people love me and need me
69. cozy & squashed in bed
70. rainy days because we need it desperately
71. seeing the problem even if no solution seems forthcoming
72. the scars of motherhood on my body

Thank you Lord for all these graces, looking at the mundane is now brighter than the extraordinary.