Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Dragon emerging

filled with anger
emotions upturned
feel like crying, clawing, spitting

I wonder if its the mommy meltdown many write about.  If its truly time I stepped back a moment and look at the wonderful mess or maybe beautiful life I am weaving- its probably a bit of both!

I've told hubs if  I find a yoga retreat here in Malta I will pack and simply go.  I think I truly need a retreat....it will give me back my energy, my focus and my life......but there is no retreat I know of-sigh-

So I write here instead to clear my mind, clear my system from this anger boiling in me.  Shed a few tears.  So many emotions and so little time to sort them out.

Saturday, August 13, 2011

The cave of darkness

picture from wikipedia


This week's adventure took us to Ghar Dalam or Cave of darkness!
We didn't use the bus though there is one that stops right in front of it...thing is we both had a bad night and were tired so knew that if the busw as taken I was increasing the risk of a tantrum.  That said, (and we did have a small one to!) we had lots of fun.  Entrance fee is of eur 5 per adult, child free.  On going in you find a museum full of bones that where excavated from the cave.  These include, bears, elephants, deer and more.  It also had the skeleton of a few animals which Gregory simply loved watching.  To go to the cave you have lots of stairs so not accessable for the challenged person and you go through a garden which is lovely and quiet.  The cave itself is very nice and quite big.  Gregory loved going in and asking me what all the numbers meant.  We than had a snack in the garden before we headed back home.  another lovely morning together and which I reccommend to all with kids.

Friday, August 12, 2011

Death

It's strange isn't it how the death of someone can show us life from a different perspective.

And more acutely it shows how weak we are!  We are infinitely weak in our suffering.  A suffering that shouldn't be felt as acute as it does because after all that loved one has gone to a better place- to find peace and happiness and no more pain.  And yet we feel that loss as if it is the end of our world and for a good while till we get used to the 'new life' it is!  We simply do not have it in us to let go of that person.

Death also shows us through the suffering of others what it will be in store for us when our time comes to mourn.  It also details us that maybe we should plan more for our own death.  To maybe facilitate the process our loved ones have to go through when we go.  It squeezes all of our reserves into that final farewell. 

The pain so real that fills my heart right now is however not for the dead but the living and I wonder when my time comes to say my farewells if I will be able to actually let go and be happy knowing they have reached their intended destination to now start living the life of carefree abundance.

The meaning of life?  We have to suffer a lot because that suffering moulds us to become more near to our Lord and be worthy of living by his side eternally.  Of course life has its long moments of happiness.  Pockets of paradise to help us through.  Death is not the end really but the beginning and yet in our blind suffering we simply forget.

May God bring peace in the suffering hearts of my family.

Monday, August 8, 2011

Gardens in Summer

Last week for our Toddler Summer Fun one on one time, we went to San Anton Garden.



We took the bus again up to Valletta than the first bus along towards Rabat, Dingli or Mtarfa.  In total the journey took 1 hr 20 mins.  We got to the garden nearing 10 am and although lots of shade offered, I admit it was still quite hot.  However, it was pleasant enough and we stayed there for an hour discovering trees, watching ducks, chasing pigeons and cats, looking at flowers and so on.  Gregory had a wonderful time and was exhausted by the end of it.  The long trip with the bus did not bother him at all!  Bring snacks along as not a lot of choices from where to buy.

Monday, August 1, 2011

the potty adventures

As you have read here, we began potty training me and Gregory.

Nearly two months have passed since then and the progress is significant.  In fact we have taken the past few days the step were apart for night time no nappy is used on Gregory.  Today, we also had another first where I took him out on an errand with the big boy pants only - it was a success in many ways.

I am still the spectator that cheers and helps and encourages.  Being so also made me realize a couple of things:


  • I've had people tell me that they would have left their child for 5 mins or more on the potty in the hope that they use it.  Children whom as grown ups sometimes seem not to know if they actually need to use the  bathroom.  This led me to the conclusion that this method would have led my son to doubt his urges and feelings
  • Why this need to hurry potty training to preferably a day or two? Like the child had to take his time to learn to walk, so again is potty training and this leads to harmony at home and more love and connection between the parents and children.


And after all this, all I can say is that Greg started telling us when he needs to wee and most of the time holding it long enough to go to the potty or training seat.  In fact today while at the library he told me such and at first I feared he peed himself but he hadn't so we rushed out to the bathrooms and I had a happy, proud boy by my side!  I actually felt bad I doubted my son for that split second.

So the nos have dwindled to near zero and the actual going and making is happening all the time.  Pooing is still a problem but if a month made such a difference I have no worries at all.  I still congratulate him whenever he uses the potty or seat and encourage him and remind him to let me know if he needs to go but most of the time he asks himself and that is a great achievement.

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Dragon emerging

filled with anger
emotions upturned
feel like crying, clawing, spitting

I wonder if its the mommy meltdown many write about.  If its truly time I stepped back a moment and look at the wonderful mess or maybe beautiful life I am weaving- its probably a bit of both!

I've told hubs if  I find a yoga retreat here in Malta I will pack and simply go.  I think I truly need a retreat....it will give me back my energy, my focus and my life......but there is no retreat I know of-sigh-

So I write here instead to clear my mind, clear my system from this anger boiling in me.  Shed a few tears.  So many emotions and so little time to sort them out.

Saturday, August 13, 2011

The cave of darkness

picture from wikipedia


This week's adventure took us to Ghar Dalam or Cave of darkness!
We didn't use the bus though there is one that stops right in front of it...thing is we both had a bad night and were tired so knew that if the busw as taken I was increasing the risk of a tantrum.  That said, (and we did have a small one to!) we had lots of fun.  Entrance fee is of eur 5 per adult, child free.  On going in you find a museum full of bones that where excavated from the cave.  These include, bears, elephants, deer and more.  It also had the skeleton of a few animals which Gregory simply loved watching.  To go to the cave you have lots of stairs so not accessable for the challenged person and you go through a garden which is lovely and quiet.  The cave itself is very nice and quite big.  Gregory loved going in and asking me what all the numbers meant.  We than had a snack in the garden before we headed back home.  another lovely morning together and which I reccommend to all with kids.

Friday, August 12, 2011

Death

It's strange isn't it how the death of someone can show us life from a different perspective.

And more acutely it shows how weak we are!  We are infinitely weak in our suffering.  A suffering that shouldn't be felt as acute as it does because after all that loved one has gone to a better place- to find peace and happiness and no more pain.  And yet we feel that loss as if it is the end of our world and for a good while till we get used to the 'new life' it is!  We simply do not have it in us to let go of that person.

Death also shows us through the suffering of others what it will be in store for us when our time comes to mourn.  It also details us that maybe we should plan more for our own death.  To maybe facilitate the process our loved ones have to go through when we go.  It squeezes all of our reserves into that final farewell. 

The pain so real that fills my heart right now is however not for the dead but the living and I wonder when my time comes to say my farewells if I will be able to actually let go and be happy knowing they have reached their intended destination to now start living the life of carefree abundance.

The meaning of life?  We have to suffer a lot because that suffering moulds us to become more near to our Lord and be worthy of living by his side eternally.  Of course life has its long moments of happiness.  Pockets of paradise to help us through.  Death is not the end really but the beginning and yet in our blind suffering we simply forget.

May God bring peace in the suffering hearts of my family.

Monday, August 8, 2011

Gardens in Summer

Last week for our Toddler Summer Fun one on one time, we went to San Anton Garden.



We took the bus again up to Valletta than the first bus along towards Rabat, Dingli or Mtarfa.  In total the journey took 1 hr 20 mins.  We got to the garden nearing 10 am and although lots of shade offered, I admit it was still quite hot.  However, it was pleasant enough and we stayed there for an hour discovering trees, watching ducks, chasing pigeons and cats, looking at flowers and so on.  Gregory had a wonderful time and was exhausted by the end of it.  The long trip with the bus did not bother him at all!  Bring snacks along as not a lot of choices from where to buy.

Monday, August 1, 2011

the potty adventures

As you have read here, we began potty training me and Gregory.

Nearly two months have passed since then and the progress is significant.  In fact we have taken the past few days the step were apart for night time no nappy is used on Gregory.  Today, we also had another first where I took him out on an errand with the big boy pants only - it was a success in many ways.

I am still the spectator that cheers and helps and encourages.  Being so also made me realize a couple of things:


  • I've had people tell me that they would have left their child for 5 mins or more on the potty in the hope that they use it.  Children whom as grown ups sometimes seem not to know if they actually need to use the  bathroom.  This led me to the conclusion that this method would have led my son to doubt his urges and feelings
  • Why this need to hurry potty training to preferably a day or two? Like the child had to take his time to learn to walk, so again is potty training and this leads to harmony at home and more love and connection between the parents and children.


And after all this, all I can say is that Greg started telling us when he needs to wee and most of the time holding it long enough to go to the potty or training seat.  In fact today while at the library he told me such and at first I feared he peed himself but he hadn't so we rushed out to the bathrooms and I had a happy, proud boy by my side!  I actually felt bad I doubted my son for that split second.

So the nos have dwindled to near zero and the actual going and making is happening all the time.  Pooing is still a problem but if a month made such a difference I have no worries at all.  I still congratulate him whenever he uses the potty or seat and encourage him and remind him to let me know if he needs to go but most of the time he asks himself and that is a great achievement.