Saturday, November 15, 2014

It's time to start sewing

A lot of shifts have been happening within.

I am emotionally and physically tired.

I still need to grasp exactly the many details that are raging through my head.

I am completely at a loss from where to start.

The threads in my hand are multiplying quickly and sometimes I am not able to handle them all.  I am still learning how to sew them together, how to mend.

It is exciting and frightening.  Interesting, mind boggling and infinitely fed up of holding it all and juggling it all.

A steep learning curve on many, so many fronts!

It gives me a boost of hope.

It allows me to continue my journey, see the true me emerge from the ashes.  Building up my strengths where weaknesses resist.

The infinite grandness of the universe who support me and give me the tools and people in my life that help me achieve it all is awesome.

I am blessed.

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

This is life

Sadness is when you are not heard
Sadness is when you are not listened to
Sadness is when you feel without support
Sadness is when you wake up with a heavy bleeding heart.

Lonely is the path of the truthful
Lonely is the path of your true self
Lonely is the path of your high standards
Lonely is the path but I know I am not alone

In grief I weep
In grief I bleed
In grief I am strong
In grief I live without bonds

Light my way dear angels
Show me the trail I am meant to take
Lead me by hand because I am fearful
Let me gather myself for the battle will be long

Sunday, November 9, 2014

Christmas is in the air

This year I feel like I am late with my preperations but then I realised most of the stuff is done from last year so there are only a few tweaks that needs to be arranged and now I can say I am ready and happy.

Here is how our Advent and Christmas will look like and these are the books we will be reading more or less daily.



26 November do an Advent wreath with the kids to start lighting 30th Nov

Advent activities
 Mon - Put on the decorations
 Tues - Start contructing the crib
Wed - Finish off the crib
  Thurs - Put in the statues of the crib
 Fri - Take a family photo
 Sat - Celebrate St Nick by reading story, poem, activities: gift giving to crèche a big nice stocking; as well as do the Christmas grass
 Sun - See film – Home Alone + light second candle
 Mon - Celebrate the Immaculate Conception by reading story, drawing, explaining that God always had us on his mind even before birth, activity: do a small present for the grandparents because we have them our minds
 Tues – Visit the toy shops for gift ideas
 Wed – Do Christmas cards for teachers /family
 Thurs - Buy food for the needy & give it to parish priest to pass it on
 Fri - Celebrate St Lucia by reading story, drawing & doing St Lucia buns
 Sat - Go to Valletta enjoy the Christmas lights, train ride & dinner together + visit Christmas fair in Phoenicia till 6 pm
 Sun - Visit crib in Zejtun + light third candle
 Mon - See film- The Polar Express
 Tues - Send money to a charity
 Wed – Bake Christmas pudding together
 Thurs – Leave a small gift to our rubbish picker
 Fri - Do Advent Kindness Tree
 Sat -  Go to Gozo visit live crib in Ghajnsielem (4.30 pm)
 Sun – Sing Christmas Carols together + light last candle
 Mon - Write a letter to Jesus and burn it
 Tues - Write a family letter and affix it in the living room
  Wed - Put baby Jesus in the crib

12 days of Christmas activities
 Sun - Christmas day Mass and spend with family
 Mon - St Stephen day celebrate by reading story, drawing
  Tues – see the film curious George a very monkey Christtmas
 Wed - Read the poem 12 days of Christmas and explain meaning
 Thurs - Go to the aquarium
 Fri -  invite a few mummies & kiddies for tea
 Sat - Do Qaghaq tal-ghasel
 Sun – New Year Day family time
 Mon - Feast of Mary Mother of God read story of St Mary, activity: do a rosary (http://www.ehow.com/how_4856821_make-rosary-kids.html)
 Tues - Go to Buskett for a picnic
 Wed – Do candles (http://www.kidspot.com.au)
 Thurs – story of Epiphany; end of Christmas season we take down decorations


Thursday, November 6, 2014

Living in the real world

Life is unexpected.

We get used to our routine and suddenly life changes our whole world.  It is scary most of the time.  Often interlinked with sadness and anger.

But I have been learning that everything happens for a reason.  Every encounter is there to help me grow. Every little thing whether welcomed or not is there to help me reach my full potential - find my true self.

And I am in a point in my life with many wonderful people who are helping me in more ways then they will probably ever know.

I am also at a point of my life where my world just went topsy turvy. A tiny speck but which can change a lot of outcomes in my very near future.  A lesson in letting go, facing fears and accepting what I can not change.  A lesson in making sure I do not let my stress out on the children and a lesson in remembering that it is useless to stress about something I can not change.

The things I have been struggling on in parenting came all tumbling down on me with no way out except moving on and making sure I finally get there.  It is amazing this life of ours.

So right now I thank my support system - those that one can see but also those that I believe are of the spiritual world.  In spite of my fears right now I can feel their cloak of love covering me and beckoning me.  It is really an opportunity for me to grow some more :) and I thank God, life who is giving me this opportunity even if some what I bit blunt.

Saturday, November 15, 2014

It's time to start sewing

A lot of shifts have been happening within.

I am emotionally and physically tired.

I still need to grasp exactly the many details that are raging through my head.

I am completely at a loss from where to start.

The threads in my hand are multiplying quickly and sometimes I am not able to handle them all.  I am still learning how to sew them together, how to mend.

It is exciting and frightening.  Interesting, mind boggling and infinitely fed up of holding it all and juggling it all.

A steep learning curve on many, so many fronts!

It gives me a boost of hope.

It allows me to continue my journey, see the true me emerge from the ashes.  Building up my strengths where weaknesses resist.

The infinite grandness of the universe who support me and give me the tools and people in my life that help me achieve it all is awesome.

I am blessed.

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

This is life

Sadness is when you are not heard
Sadness is when you are not listened to
Sadness is when you feel without support
Sadness is when you wake up with a heavy bleeding heart.

Lonely is the path of the truthful
Lonely is the path of your true self
Lonely is the path of your high standards
Lonely is the path but I know I am not alone

In grief I weep
In grief I bleed
In grief I am strong
In grief I live without bonds

Light my way dear angels
Show me the trail I am meant to take
Lead me by hand because I am fearful
Let me gather myself for the battle will be long

Sunday, November 9, 2014

Christmas is in the air

This year I feel like I am late with my preperations but then I realised most of the stuff is done from last year so there are only a few tweaks that needs to be arranged and now I can say I am ready and happy.

Here is how our Advent and Christmas will look like and these are the books we will be reading more or less daily.



26 November do an Advent wreath with the kids to start lighting 30th Nov

Advent activities
 Mon - Put on the decorations
 Tues - Start contructing the crib
Wed - Finish off the crib
  Thurs - Put in the statues of the crib
 Fri - Take a family photo
 Sat - Celebrate St Nick by reading story, poem, activities: gift giving to crèche a big nice stocking; as well as do the Christmas grass
 Sun - See film – Home Alone + light second candle
 Mon - Celebrate the Immaculate Conception by reading story, drawing, explaining that God always had us on his mind even before birth, activity: do a small present for the grandparents because we have them our minds
 Tues – Visit the toy shops for gift ideas
 Wed – Do Christmas cards for teachers /family
 Thurs - Buy food for the needy & give it to parish priest to pass it on
 Fri - Celebrate St Lucia by reading story, drawing & doing St Lucia buns
 Sat - Go to Valletta enjoy the Christmas lights, train ride & dinner together + visit Christmas fair in Phoenicia till 6 pm
 Sun - Visit crib in Zejtun + light third candle
 Mon - See film- The Polar Express
 Tues - Send money to a charity
 Wed – Bake Christmas pudding together
 Thurs – Leave a small gift to our rubbish picker
 Fri - Do Advent Kindness Tree
 Sat -  Go to Gozo visit live crib in Ghajnsielem (4.30 pm)
 Sun – Sing Christmas Carols together + light last candle
 Mon - Write a letter to Jesus and burn it
 Tues - Write a family letter and affix it in the living room
  Wed - Put baby Jesus in the crib

12 days of Christmas activities
 Sun - Christmas day Mass and spend with family
 Mon - St Stephen day celebrate by reading story, drawing
  Tues – see the film curious George a very monkey Christtmas
 Wed - Read the poem 12 days of Christmas and explain meaning
 Thurs - Go to the aquarium
 Fri -  invite a few mummies & kiddies for tea
 Sat - Do Qaghaq tal-ghasel
 Sun – New Year Day family time
 Mon - Feast of Mary Mother of God read story of St Mary, activity: do a rosary (http://www.ehow.com/how_4856821_make-rosary-kids.html)
 Tues - Go to Buskett for a picnic
 Wed – Do candles (http://www.kidspot.com.au)
 Thurs – story of Epiphany; end of Christmas season we take down decorations


Thursday, November 6, 2014

Living in the real world

Life is unexpected.

We get used to our routine and suddenly life changes our whole world.  It is scary most of the time.  Often interlinked with sadness and anger.

But I have been learning that everything happens for a reason.  Every encounter is there to help me grow. Every little thing whether welcomed or not is there to help me reach my full potential - find my true self.

And I am in a point in my life with many wonderful people who are helping me in more ways then they will probably ever know.

I am also at a point of my life where my world just went topsy turvy. A tiny speck but which can change a lot of outcomes in my very near future.  A lesson in letting go, facing fears and accepting what I can not change.  A lesson in making sure I do not let my stress out on the children and a lesson in remembering that it is useless to stress about something I can not change.

The things I have been struggling on in parenting came all tumbling down on me with no way out except moving on and making sure I finally get there.  It is amazing this life of ours.

So right now I thank my support system - those that one can see but also those that I believe are of the spiritual world.  In spite of my fears right now I can feel their cloak of love covering me and beckoning me.  It is really an opportunity for me to grow some more :) and I thank God, life who is giving me this opportunity even if some what I bit blunt.