Saturday, April 21, 2012

Its today my special day

Its my birthday, I'm so happy, happy, happy today!

I've always wished to have a special birthday.  For my lucky birthday I went abroad but I felt nothing and was disappointed.  For my 30th I did a party and the same thing happened.  But this year :) it was different and I feel in heaven!

We decided to go camping because we had a camp for the past 3-4 years and never used it.  I thought it would be fun and interesting for the kids and so we went for just 1 night as a tester.  I had so much fun ... and than Dave surprised me with a present a chamilia bracelet I'd been wishing since I heard about them and it was the best birthday present ever really. 

Back home this morning was an array of errands and than at the airport to meet my cousin...well that was the best 2nd birthday present meeting her again together with her little baby girl.  We didn't say much-she had a long flight and was tired and really I am just excited knowing that we have 3 months were we can meet hopefully every other day and talk incessantly about life and kids.

Again at home I found a packet from my long distance friend with a lot of lovely nicknacks and I feel so blessed and happy :)

Its been a great day and I am sure we will have a great evening and tomorrow our 6th wedding anniversary will be just as fantastic and special I know!

daddy playing with our kids

the view from our camp site

me and my rascals

daddy with his girl

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

191 - 210 joys

191. lots of words
192. calling and seeking each other's company
193. spontaneous thanking
194. learning bartering
195. sharing
196. thinking of others
197. starting to want her way- bring on the terrible twos!
198. lots of ideas for the Summer
199. making music
200. reading, lots of reading
201. an imperfect house- because others dont have one
202. water & electricity
203. the possibilty to help others
204. pregnancy (not me)- its always a lovely miracle
205. spontaneous nice patting from my daughter
206. requesting bandi (swings)
207. a bigger apetite
208. the joy of splashing water all over
209. waiting for Summer
210. sitting still

Friday, April 13, 2012

Spring

I wish to write but my thoughts jam up.

The road has been quite winding recently that I lost sight of a lot of things.

So I have been tired and cranky and it wasn't just having 2 kids at home while on Easter holidays (though that didn't help).

I forgot to still my mind for the past month and a half.  I didn't make time for God.  I don't even know what I did really- it's more like nothing and here I am today suddenly realising that I lost my track. 

My mind skips from plans for next week, to Summer, to Autumn and Winter coming.  Gosh!

And today it is raining again.  Spring has come nice and sweet and yet Wintery moments persist.  I see this as a way to show me that I need to go back to my Winter schedule.  I need to rest but my mind is too occupied, I try to still it but it simply won't listen.  I worry, I get angry.....

I remember my New Year's words- trust and surrender. 

So I sit here and while writing feel like a big clog has been taken away.  I am lighter and happier.  Still worried but my mind quieter.  I am going back to my path, to seek the face of God, to enjoy motherhood and be confident of being me.

Trust and Surrender- powerful words I was afraid to use and now I seek them more and more.

Saturday, April 21, 2012

Its today my special day

Its my birthday, I'm so happy, happy, happy today!

I've always wished to have a special birthday.  For my lucky birthday I went abroad but I felt nothing and was disappointed.  For my 30th I did a party and the same thing happened.  But this year :) it was different and I feel in heaven!

We decided to go camping because we had a camp for the past 3-4 years and never used it.  I thought it would be fun and interesting for the kids and so we went for just 1 night as a tester.  I had so much fun ... and than Dave surprised me with a present a chamilia bracelet I'd been wishing since I heard about them and it was the best birthday present ever really. 

Back home this morning was an array of errands and than at the airport to meet my cousin...well that was the best 2nd birthday present meeting her again together with her little baby girl.  We didn't say much-she had a long flight and was tired and really I am just excited knowing that we have 3 months were we can meet hopefully every other day and talk incessantly about life and kids.

Again at home I found a packet from my long distance friend with a lot of lovely nicknacks and I feel so blessed and happy :)

Its been a great day and I am sure we will have a great evening and tomorrow our 6th wedding anniversary will be just as fantastic and special I know!

daddy playing with our kids

the view from our camp site

me and my rascals

daddy with his girl

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

191 - 210 joys

191. lots of words
192. calling and seeking each other's company
193. spontaneous thanking
194. learning bartering
195. sharing
196. thinking of others
197. starting to want her way- bring on the terrible twos!
198. lots of ideas for the Summer
199. making music
200. reading, lots of reading
201. an imperfect house- because others dont have one
202. water & electricity
203. the possibilty to help others
204. pregnancy (not me)- its always a lovely miracle
205. spontaneous nice patting from my daughter
206. requesting bandi (swings)
207. a bigger apetite
208. the joy of splashing water all over
209. waiting for Summer
210. sitting still

Friday, April 13, 2012

Spring

I wish to write but my thoughts jam up.

The road has been quite winding recently that I lost sight of a lot of things.

So I have been tired and cranky and it wasn't just having 2 kids at home while on Easter holidays (though that didn't help).

I forgot to still my mind for the past month and a half.  I didn't make time for God.  I don't even know what I did really- it's more like nothing and here I am today suddenly realising that I lost my track. 

My mind skips from plans for next week, to Summer, to Autumn and Winter coming.  Gosh!

And today it is raining again.  Spring has come nice and sweet and yet Wintery moments persist.  I see this as a way to show me that I need to go back to my Winter schedule.  I need to rest but my mind is too occupied, I try to still it but it simply won't listen.  I worry, I get angry.....

I remember my New Year's words- trust and surrender. 

So I sit here and while writing feel like a big clog has been taken away.  I am lighter and happier.  Still worried but my mind quieter.  I am going back to my path, to seek the face of God, to enjoy motherhood and be confident of being me.

Trust and Surrender- powerful words I was afraid to use and now I seek them more and more.