Saturday, November 6, 2010

random Saturday

Today I had a sad feeling.

My sister came over and frankly we couldn't find anything to talk about to each other.  It was a struggle which we both at times gave up of persuing.

I had hoped long ago, that once we both have kids we would become closer.  Yet this is not the case- maybe coz our parenting methods are so different, maybe coz our way of thinking is very different...probably its a combination of all but it feels like a failure.  Something I wanted to do and never got to!

On another topic, I have updated my wish list of things to accomplish and was very interested in seeing my once long list reduced to half a dozen things.  I was quite interested to note that my yoga teacher course is on the not sure list now.  Why? I got no idea myself when that happened but recently I started thinking about it since I was meant to start it next May.  I realised that I wasn't much interested in doing it per se.  I'd like to, but not to use as a job anymore but only as a byproduct kinda to further my insight in my future work.  Yes, I do believe that when the kiddies start school I will go back to work.  I am thinking on something to do with child care truly.  Maybe it will only be voluntary work, I really have no idea just yet but I know I will need to work hard for a rhythm when the time comes.

Tonight I hope to manage and have a date with hubs...well just a night in really together but still.  Yet this cold I got isn't being very helpful and am more inclined to sleep -yikes-.

Today, I am glad for some time alone at home.  For my son who's fed up of being inside all day long but doesn't quite complain much.  For hubs who is being soooo helpful even if I don't show the appreciation all the time.  For the work he's got that is enabling us to finally start renovations on our home.  It's gonna be a quiet weekend at home and that's ok.  We will have lots of filled days when the kids get older :) so enjoying the inactivity is what I am practicing right now.

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Saturday, November 6, 2010

random Saturday

Today I had a sad feeling.

My sister came over and frankly we couldn't find anything to talk about to each other.  It was a struggle which we both at times gave up of persuing.

I had hoped long ago, that once we both have kids we would become closer.  Yet this is not the case- maybe coz our parenting methods are so different, maybe coz our way of thinking is very different...probably its a combination of all but it feels like a failure.  Something I wanted to do and never got to!

On another topic, I have updated my wish list of things to accomplish and was very interested in seeing my once long list reduced to half a dozen things.  I was quite interested to note that my yoga teacher course is on the not sure list now.  Why? I got no idea myself when that happened but recently I started thinking about it since I was meant to start it next May.  I realised that I wasn't much interested in doing it per se.  I'd like to, but not to use as a job anymore but only as a byproduct kinda to further my insight in my future work.  Yes, I do believe that when the kiddies start school I will go back to work.  I am thinking on something to do with child care truly.  Maybe it will only be voluntary work, I really have no idea just yet but I know I will need to work hard for a rhythm when the time comes.

Tonight I hope to manage and have a date with hubs...well just a night in really together but still.  Yet this cold I got isn't being very helpful and am more inclined to sleep -yikes-.

Today, I am glad for some time alone at home.  For my son who's fed up of being inside all day long but doesn't quite complain much.  For hubs who is being soooo helpful even if I don't show the appreciation all the time.  For the work he's got that is enabling us to finally start renovations on our home.  It's gonna be a quiet weekend at home and that's ok.  We will have lots of filled days when the kids get older :) so enjoying the inactivity is what I am practicing right now.

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