Saturday, October 16, 2010

mummy can't take it anymore

I can't wait for next weekend.

It's not the party really- that is just a plus- some time to spend with friends and get to know them even better.

It's simply the me time I haven't had in ages.  Just thinking of going out from early morning and spending a whole day all by my self is dizzying! 

I've been nagging and complaining non stop and although I see it and disgust myself hearing me speak I can't stop it.  I am tired.  I haven't had any me time for a long time now since I had to stop yoga classes.  When I am alone like now as hubs took Greg for a walk with the hope he finally sleeps, I still can't really relax.  Maybe i simply am so exhausted or its hormones and pregnancy.  We've been havin sleeping issues which i can't seem to resolve and are getting me even more tired.....I just can't function anymore!

I know what to do to get back into balance but I don't have the energy to even start trying or thinking about it.  Also I know its a vicious cycle and when the mama is not into it everyone else in the family is effected.

So what is a mama feeling in burnout to do? pray and love and thank and wait for next week and trust that tomorrow will be better and if Greg can have a normal nap again and sleep till 6 am again instead of 4, I can start planning the balancing act.  Coz really who am I kidding, unless I do it and quick, things will get worse not better.

4 comments:

Mademoiselle Deva said...

Ayy! I hope your situation will get better very soon! I can imagine how tired you must be!

Rae said...

ahhh, sweet mama I hear your pain. I hope you had a great nights sleep and find some wonderful moments of awareness this coming week to carry you through to the weekend. You seem so self aware and this is a wonderful gift. Your family are so blessed to have you in their lives.

your friendly SITsah :)

Mrs green @myzerowaste.com

Jenn Erickson said...

It is so wonderful to hear that you're going to be getting some "me time". It's so important to staying healthy, motivated, and healthy for our families! Enjoy, Melissa!

Magaly Guerrero said...

Oh darling, I wish I knew how to fix the universal busy conundrum. I'm not even a mom and I'm busy all the time, which makes me feel like a whimp when I think of people like you who battle the whole deal.

If you find the the secret, do tell!

Saturday, October 16, 2010

mummy can't take it anymore

I can't wait for next weekend.

It's not the party really- that is just a plus- some time to spend with friends and get to know them even better.

It's simply the me time I haven't had in ages.  Just thinking of going out from early morning and spending a whole day all by my self is dizzying! 

I've been nagging and complaining non stop and although I see it and disgust myself hearing me speak I can't stop it.  I am tired.  I haven't had any me time for a long time now since I had to stop yoga classes.  When I am alone like now as hubs took Greg for a walk with the hope he finally sleeps, I still can't really relax.  Maybe i simply am so exhausted or its hormones and pregnancy.  We've been havin sleeping issues which i can't seem to resolve and are getting me even more tired.....I just can't function anymore!

I know what to do to get back into balance but I don't have the energy to even start trying or thinking about it.  Also I know its a vicious cycle and when the mama is not into it everyone else in the family is effected.

So what is a mama feeling in burnout to do? pray and love and thank and wait for next week and trust that tomorrow will be better and if Greg can have a normal nap again and sleep till 6 am again instead of 4, I can start planning the balancing act.  Coz really who am I kidding, unless I do it and quick, things will get worse not better.

4 comments:

Mademoiselle Deva said...

Ayy! I hope your situation will get better very soon! I can imagine how tired you must be!

Rae said...

ahhh, sweet mama I hear your pain. I hope you had a great nights sleep and find some wonderful moments of awareness this coming week to carry you through to the weekend. You seem so self aware and this is a wonderful gift. Your family are so blessed to have you in their lives.

your friendly SITsah :)

Mrs green @myzerowaste.com

Jenn Erickson said...

It is so wonderful to hear that you're going to be getting some "me time". It's so important to staying healthy, motivated, and healthy for our families! Enjoy, Melissa!

Magaly Guerrero said...

Oh darling, I wish I knew how to fix the universal busy conundrum. I'm not even a mom and I'm busy all the time, which makes me feel like a whimp when I think of people like you who battle the whole deal.

If you find the the secret, do tell!