Wednesday, July 1, 2009

how it felt going back to work

After a weekend with sudden bursts of frustrated anger, I realised it probably was due to my imminent return to work. Tuesday, that is yesterday evening, it suddenly dawned at me that the following day I was off to work., and my breath became shallow and I tensed up horribly. Thankfully, I had my yoga class which worked wonders. This morning, it seemed like a normal one and I felt ok! Than on my way to work, hot tears trickled down my cheeks and my heart seemed to burst....I had left my puppy! True he was with his dad but I worried that I forgot to tell him something or that Greg will cry like he sometimes does and won't manage to calm him or or....... horrible moments!
By the time I got to work I was fine and had periodic updates throughout and Greg was fine and Dave felt fine and I sighed with relief. It was an uneventful day back in the office as if I never been away. People asked how I felt... my answer? Great never felt better! I'd rather have been at home with my boy but both my boys were doing fine today and so I felt great and proud for some reason.

11 comments:

Thom said...

You are indeed a great mom and wife. Glad your day went well and no one would expect you to feel any different Aloha

WackyMummy said...

It's rough leaving him, isn't it? But it's good to be away too and get back to yourself, know what I mean? It's so easy to get a little lost in being a mom sometimes that I lost a little of myself. My blog is how I learned to reclaim me. Anyways, congrats on a successful first day back! =)

Priscilla said...

I was thinking of you and David today with the transition. I'm glad it all went well. See you tomorrow.

Miranda said...

I'm glad it went so well. I would have been freaking out too. I think it's one of those things that gets better over time. :)

Yaya said...

I'm sorry. That had to have been emotional.

Mrs. Fish: aka Two Fish said...

That first day and the first week is the hardest. Was 11am when you hit me up @ 8pm. I hope you sleep well as it is 7pm here now! LOL May you find peace with returning to work and your prayers are answered to stay home....praying and sending good karma your way for the opportunity!

Much Love!
Karie

Alicia said...

glad it ended up ok! i have such a hard time leaving my munchkins! but you handled it soooo well!

Equidae said...

you are all too good to me :) but thanks for all your compliments

Marina said...

I remember the first time I left dottie at home with a nanny...it felt horrible but from experience I will tell you that it DOES get better....doesnt go away all together...but does get better!

P.S. Coming over from SITS....bunny hop over to enter 2 great giveaways:http://energizerbunnysmommyreports.blogspot.com/

iheartbowheads.blogspot.com said...

Love those periodic updates. :)

Glad it went well!

SugarandSpice said...

I cried my first day back at work too! I hated it! It gets easier. My kids are 6 and 2 and I still have those moments on the way to work, and if I could afford to quit... I would. Stopping by from sits!

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

how it felt going back to work

After a weekend with sudden bursts of frustrated anger, I realised it probably was due to my imminent return to work. Tuesday, that is yesterday evening, it suddenly dawned at me that the following day I was off to work., and my breath became shallow and I tensed up horribly. Thankfully, I had my yoga class which worked wonders. This morning, it seemed like a normal one and I felt ok! Than on my way to work, hot tears trickled down my cheeks and my heart seemed to burst....I had left my puppy! True he was with his dad but I worried that I forgot to tell him something or that Greg will cry like he sometimes does and won't manage to calm him or or....... horrible moments!
By the time I got to work I was fine and had periodic updates throughout and Greg was fine and Dave felt fine and I sighed with relief. It was an uneventful day back in the office as if I never been away. People asked how I felt... my answer? Great never felt better! I'd rather have been at home with my boy but both my boys were doing fine today and so I felt great and proud for some reason.

11 comments:

Thom said...

You are indeed a great mom and wife. Glad your day went well and no one would expect you to feel any different Aloha

WackyMummy said...

It's rough leaving him, isn't it? But it's good to be away too and get back to yourself, know what I mean? It's so easy to get a little lost in being a mom sometimes that I lost a little of myself. My blog is how I learned to reclaim me. Anyways, congrats on a successful first day back! =)

Priscilla said...

I was thinking of you and David today with the transition. I'm glad it all went well. See you tomorrow.

Miranda said...

I'm glad it went so well. I would have been freaking out too. I think it's one of those things that gets better over time. :)

Yaya said...

I'm sorry. That had to have been emotional.

Mrs. Fish: aka Two Fish said...

That first day and the first week is the hardest. Was 11am when you hit me up @ 8pm. I hope you sleep well as it is 7pm here now! LOL May you find peace with returning to work and your prayers are answered to stay home....praying and sending good karma your way for the opportunity!

Much Love!
Karie

Alicia said...

glad it ended up ok! i have such a hard time leaving my munchkins! but you handled it soooo well!

Equidae said...

you are all too good to me :) but thanks for all your compliments

Marina said...

I remember the first time I left dottie at home with a nanny...it felt horrible but from experience I will tell you that it DOES get better....doesnt go away all together...but does get better!

P.S. Coming over from SITS....bunny hop over to enter 2 great giveaways:http://energizerbunnysmommyreports.blogspot.com/

iheartbowheads.blogspot.com said...

Love those periodic updates. :)

Glad it went well!

SugarandSpice said...

I cried my first day back at work too! I hated it! It gets easier. My kids are 6 and 2 and I still have those moments on the way to work, and if I could afford to quit... I would. Stopping by from sits!