This is life

Sadness is when you are not heard

Sadness is when you are not listened to

Sadness is when you feel without support

Sadness is when you wake up with a heavy bleeding heart.

Lonely is the path of the truthful

Lonely is the path of your true self

Lonely is the path of your high standards

Lonely is the path but I know I am not alone

In grief I weep

In grief I bleed

In grief I am strong

In grief I live without bonds

Light my way dear angels

Show me the trail I am meant to take

Lead me by hand because I am fearful

Let me gather myself for the battle will be long

1000 graces from God no 9 -11

Life throws us a lot of unexpecteds.  Sometimes they are easy to deal with.  Others consume us with questions, guilt, grief and such emotions.  Grace no 9- remembering that God is our leader and we must submit to Him and let Him guide us in the quest called life.

I wanted the perfect baby shower but as already said things happen that makes us change tactics.  Grace no 10 - that just catching up with family and friends and having some time to enjoy their company is all we need.  Parties are just excuses to do so even if they turn out different.

Lately I felt more in tune with hubs and found this a wonderful bonding time in its way.  Grace no 11 - Knowing I have the prefect husband for me and doing something that makes him smile is always wonderful

Reassured yet confounded

Lost but knowing the way

Sad but finding happiness

Adjusting yet maladjusting

This is me and I trust me!

the snake of anger

Its bubbling at the surface and shows its ugly face in a viscous way.
Its force is more than I can control.
Feel tired oh so tired!

In love with life

I hadn't realised how tensed and upstrung I was before I walked out that door to take my puppy to the swings near us. So I let the cold wind work its magic - I felt at peace and inspired!

I walked to the swings near our house

The sky was grey and the air was cold

The wind was whispering through the leaves

Caressing my skin, unwinding tired me

I sat on a bench looking at my lovely son

Playing by the pond, oblivious of the cold air

It felt so good being out with the wind

Roaming the garden with its murmuring meanders

My feet touched ground, I felt alive

My body relaxed, I smiled and exhaled

He looked at me joyous and carefree

Intently trying to walk on his two feet

I scooped him slowly in my arms

Kissed him gently on his left cheek

Sat him back in the stroller

And ambled contentedly to our sweet home

It felt so good and am so happy. I hope your day is as blessed as mine!

Deep Within

A fellow blogger & friend, was feeling fearful of posting a poem of hers....so I told her I will post one of mine as well in the hope it gives her courage :) I hope you do my dear I am sure its a wonderful one!

This poem was written in 2002 for my present husband :)

I'd like to reach for you

Feel you close to me

Your hands caressing

Soothing away all pain

I'd like to hold you

Hug you close to me

Tender kisses on my lips

Soft looks searching me deep

Wish to let you in my heart

Control my thoughts day 'n' night

Still something within resists

Fear keeps me rooted still

I search the sky deep 'n' dark

Seeking answers I can not find

Hoping something will arise

That will clear my troubled mind

Poem

Heavy heart...feeling like stone

Some unshed tears that burn within

Faking smiles and morning cheer

Why can't I sleep, forget this thing.

A wholly head spins round and round

Uncontrolled tears springs to my eyes

Like morning mist, that clings to you.

A hug, a smile is all one needs

But seems so difficult to achieve

And here at work I got no choice
But make believe that all is fine

Sweet Dreams

Last night rather then getting my sweet sleep, I stayed reading a book which is quite fascinating. While reading, I sometimes stopped to watch him sleep, especially when I heard movement from his bed and this is what resulted from all my musings:

Looking at you

While you are sleeping
I wonder.....



Your peaceful face
Your even breath
and suddenly a smile appears.



You open slightly up one eye
And I wonder what you see.
Is it angels as they say or memories of our past day?



Your peaceful face
Your even breath
And suddenly all this disappears



You toss your head from side to side
It seems you are afraid.
Of what or who I do not know
What 's in your head my dear?



Sometimes a cry escapes your lips
Creasing your face as if in pain.
what happened love what did you feel?
I wish it to go away.



And as adruptly it all appears
It all fades away.
And your peaceful face, your even breath returns
And I wonder.......